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Recovery Articles and Short Stories

Michael Jackson Smith

Recovery Articles

The Awakening – A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks, and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out, ENOUGH: Enough fighting, enough crying and struggling. And like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside; you shudder once or twice; you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. Continue reading

Self-Imposed Stress – You know that you function best on eight hours of sleep, but you rarely hit the hay at ten p.m. because there's always another show to watch on television or another thought to post on social media. When you finally drag yourself to bed at eleven-thirty, you're counting sheep for a while trying to fall asleep. Continue reading

Never Feel Inadequate – Above all, keep calm, unmoved. Go back into the silence to recover this calm when it is lost even for one moment. Continue reading

Are You A Codependent? – Codependency is a state of mutual dependence between two people, especially when one partner relies emotionally on supporting and caring for the other partner (and typically the other partner is chemically or emotionally addicted). Continue reading

15 Styles of Distorted Thinking – 1. Filtering: You take the negative details and magnify them, while filtering out all positive aspects of a situation. A single detail may be picked out, and the whole event becomes colored by this detail. When you pull negative things out of context, isolated from all the good experiences around you, you make them larger and more awful than they really are. Continue reading

Alcoholism Recovery - Commitment – It can be overwhelming to make a lifelong commitment to sobriety, so each morning we promise to stay sober just for today, then renew our commitment each and every morning. Continue reading

Denial – Denial is a defense mechanism in which a person unconsciously rejects thoughts, feelings, needs, wishes, or external realities that they would not be able to deal with if they got into the conscious mind. Denial prevents a person from recognizing that he has a problem. Continue reading


Schrödinger's Cat – Erwin Schrödinger is well known for his thought experiment of Schrodinger’s Cat, which contemplates what a superposition of quantum states might mean on a macroscopic level. This is the Story of Schrödinger's Cat by Cecil Adams, written in verse, that may or may not confuse the issue even more! Continue reading

Shigeru Ban - The People's Architect – Shigeru Ban was the 37th recipient of the prestigious Pritzker Architecture prize in modernist architecture for 2014. The Pritzker Jury cited Ban for his innovative use of material, and his dedication to humanitarian efforts around the world, calling him "a committed teacher who is not only a role model for the younger generation, but also an inspiration." Continue reading

Memory Improvement – In an episode of the series Unforgettable, Poppy Montgomery who plays Carrie Wells (a homicide detective with superior autobiographical memory) is questioning a witness of a murder. The witness had been tied up in a room adjacent to the room where the victim was murdered and thought that she only remembered what she'd heard. Continue reading

Quitting Smoking – The Elephant On The Rope – Part of the reason that it takes us so long to quit smoking is because society tells us that it is all but impossible to quit. They tell us that cigarettes are more addictive than heroin and cocaine. (They're not, they're just easier to obtain.). A Goggle search will produce tens of thousands of pages outlining the horrors of withdrawal. They tell us that it takes many attempts to quit... Continue reading

Short Stories

Canoeing On The Chapleau River In Northern Ontario – We left our camp near Jackson, Michigan early in the morning on a bus packed with supplies, a trailer toting 6 Grummand aluminum canoes, a guide and 11 boys, teaming with enthusiasm. Our destination was Chapleau, Ontario, a hamlet about 200 miles north of Sault Ste. Marie. Except for the guide, we were all only 16, yet we were strong swimmers with an expertise in canoeing and miles of practice under our belts on the waterways in the Waterloo Recreation Area in Central Michigan and elsewhere. Continue reading

The Other Renée Zellweger – The lights on the side of the Lincoln Tunnel zipped by her as she sped down the highway, shining in her eyes like flashbulbs going off on the red carpet at the Emmy's. She thought about how uncomfortable and frightening it must be to stand in the midst of the glitter, glamour, noise and confusion of a Hollywood event. And she wondered how it affected her namesake. Continue reading

Hildi – Hildi was pretty. Her ex-boyfriend once told Jack that she was the prettiest girl in the tenth grade and added that she was his girl. He didn't understand that Hildi was a free spirit, and no one could own her. She probably wouldn't have described herself as pretty, yet she must have sensed that she was attractive, alluring, and sophisticated. She had a countenance that lit up the room. Continue reading

Herman – Herman stopped by my office one day to show me his new set of dentures that he bought through a mail order catalog. One of his eye teeth was wrapped in gold with the shape of the state of Texas engraved into it. He smiled at me proudly that morning, but two days later he was toothless again. He told me with a lisp, "The damn dentures didn't fit right." Continue reading

Howard – Howard was an architect of some renown. For five years, he worked for an award winning skyscraper firm in Manhattan and earned the position of master designer, though his designs were often altered to fit the vision of the controlling partners. He was determined to gain control of his own destiny and returned to Dallas, his hometown, to open his own company. Continue reading

THE ROAD TO FORT WORTH by Michael Jackson Smith: Very little was known about panic disorder when I had my first panic attack. There was no help available to teach me how to assuage the attacks, but I discovered that alcohol would dissolve my fear instantly. My website contains the kind of information that would have been a tremendous help to me in the early days of my illness as I searched for solutions for the panic disorder, agoraphobia, and alcoholism that incapacitated me. My book is the story of my journey into recovery. Read Chapter 8 | Top of Page

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